Miss leads pain ?

Posted 2020-10-16

I have been 27 years old , very strong . I first go to XinJiang university for a master‘s degree in september,2017. I come with excitement and dream,then everything changed after meeting a very very beautiful and special girl unexpectedly. she is so good that I can‘t stop myself from missing her.To speek to her is really a wanderful thing while I am so ordinary even uglily that I could‘t let her know that truth. Another reason is i have a girl friend who is a good girl and plans to marry me in the end of the year.  so I have no chance to communicate with her and the feeling of missing is becoming more and more strong , the pain also more and more acute. I have never behaved this and I really had never met such a good girl,beautiful and happy. I know I fall into the mire of schizophrenia .How can I do to rescue myself because there are many responsibilitise ofr me to undertake. If anyone are happen to see and read this text ,can you give me a way to be away from such miss and pain ? And  Liang, do I have the chance to be understood by you ? Although we are impossible I really hope to be a member of many good friends of you , I will try my best to help you unless there is a need of mine . Best wishes to you , Fan... .