Chapter 3 Phenomenon——2

Posted 2020-08-28

I had enough trouble not falling down when the ground was dry; it might be safer for me to go back to bed now.

当地上是干的时候，我不摔跤都有足够的麻烦了；对于我来说现在回到床上可能更安全一些。

即使在地面干燥的时候我都很难不摔倒，现在我还是回到床上去比较保险。

Charlie had left for work before I got downstairs.

查理斯在我下楼之前已经去工作了。

In a lot of ways,living with Charlie was like having my own place, and I found myself reveling in the aloneness instead of being lonely.

在很多时候，和查理斯一起生活我有很多自己的空间，然后我发现我自己独自陶醉在孤独感之中。

从很多方面来说，和查理住在一起就像我自己一个人住一样，而且我发现我很享受独处的感觉，并不觉得孤独。

I threw down a quick bowl of cereal and some orange juice from the carton. I felt excited to go to school, and that scared me.

我从纸箱中拿出一个方便的碗和一些果汁，我感觉去学校是很刺激的，对于害怕的我来说。

我匆匆咽下一碗麦片，喝了盒橙汁。我急于去学校，而这一点把我吓到了。

I knew it wasn‘t the stimulating learning environment I was anticipating, or seeing my new set of friends.

我知道这并不是刺激我学习的环境，而是和我的新朋友相见的刺激而已。

我知道这不是因为那里有我所期望的良好的学习氛围，也不是因为能见到我那帮新朋友。

If I was being honest with myself, I knew I was eager to get to school because I would see Edward Cullen.

如果我对我自己诚实的话，我知道我想要去学校是因为我想见到Edward Cullen.

And that was very, very stupid.

但是这是非常非常傻的想法。

I should be avoiding him entirely after my brainless and embarrassing babbling yesterday.

在我昨天脑残和尴尬的胡说之后我应该完全避免见到他。

And I was suspicious of him; why should he lie about his eyes?

我对他产生了怀疑；为什么他要对他的眼睛说谎呢？

I was still frightened of the hostility I sometimes felt emanating from him, and I was still tongue-tied whenever I pictured his perfect face.

我仍然恐惧有时从他对我产生的敌意，无论何时当我面对他完美的脸的时候，我都仍然变的结结巴巴。

更何况，无论何时，只要一想到他那张完美的面孔，我就会舌头打结。

I was well aware that my league and his league were spheres that did not touch.

我很清楚的意识到我们两个阵营就像两个球体一般没有触碰的交集。

但是，我很清楚地意识到，我的活动范围和他的活动范围完全没有重合之处，所以今天我不应该这样急切地盼着见到他。

So I shouldn‘t be at all anxious to see him today.

所以今天我不应该总是焦虑的看着他。