May 15th 2017 Week 20th Monday

Posted 2020-09-29 waitingdeng

Life is a flower of which love is the honey.

人生是花朵，爱情是花蜜。

Not every life can be a flower, not every flower has the sweet honey, you know some flowers‘ honey may be bitter or smelly, and sometimes, the flower is blooming beautifully and the honey is extremely sweet, but there is no fruit at last.

Maybe I am so pessimistic about this world I live in.

Sometimes I really wonder why I, orginally an optimist, had grown into a pessimist?

Actually I know the reasons, both the obvious ones and the underneath ones, some of them are not in my control, but the rest, could have been settled or avoided if I could keep the previous level of self-discipline and if I could make a bit more efforts.

I always imagine that if I can go back into the past, I would have done something differently to make some changes in my life filled with failures.

But there is no ‘if‘ in the world, and considering my current status, I know even if I can go back to the past, there would be no change, loser would always lose.

 

Everyone is a moon and has a dark side which he never shows to anybody.

每个人都像月亮一样，拥有一个从不示人的阴暗面。

From Mark Twain.

Then what is your dark side?

Selfish, impatient, overwhelmingly pessimistic, indifferent, and lack of focus and long-term vision.

In conclusion, I have all the negative personalities that can destroy all the things I get involed with.

The machine doesn‘t work well, it goes wrong and destroyed the nearly completed workpiece.

Suddenly I felt so sad, just masturbae for amusement.