About today, looking back at my past.

Posted 2020-08-20

　　When I am writing this article, actually I just recalled my past 6 years‘ experience, it seems that I already have a very complex experience than many people. Though all these years, I really made maybe many choices, and each choice really changed my life, no matter happy or not, or whether I enjoyed it or I just suffered, they really added up to my experience, and I‘m already not so bad. Time turn back to 2010, the year I graduated from college, I went back home, and was trapped by the diseases. In a very long period, I was upset, and was in fear, I was not certain what my future would be like, if it was really that serious, how long would I live? Can I be just like the normal? At that time, when I was out, when I see the old who might be in their 60‘s, I even envyed them for their happy life and lost the pride of being young. I went out to look for jobs, here and there, from website developer trainee in software companies to network administrator in KTVs, with a 4 years‘ bachleor‘s degree, I really had much advantage over the other competitors in job interviews of that kind in my hometown, but, I found that it was hard to coordinate in the environment. Sometimes I would wonder what if I continue to stay there and live the rest of my life just same way with the guys who were so aged. It would be hard to do things well with doubts, at last, without doubt, each job last not for long, no matter who was the last decision maker, I quit, and stayed at home. I still mainly helped my father‘s business, I tried to overcome those mental sorrows and tried my best to think out ways, to learn new things, to create things, to become positive.